How did November go?
I felt very unwell this month, I won’t lie. Unwell enough to really need to see my IBD team but unable to get some face to face time, and several missed opportunities to talk to them. Everything that was niggling at me in October came full force in November – hitting me square between the (metaphorical) eyes. I spent quite alot of time off work trying to get things under control. Alas, that was proved pointless – I struggled to get my stump under control and it was not helped by my Vedolizumab infusion. I still find the fatigue and pain interfering on a semi-regular basis. It’s getting better but it’s not ideal.
I found being on painkillers every day to be exhausting. I couldn’t find any words through the haze so tampered off my Tramadol after a week or so. That has helped and I just hope that I don’t relapse. Obviously, this affects my MH too – it was hard to see through the fog that what I was doing was beneficial, I felt like a failure. I know that’s not true but its hard to overcome when you’re weighed under by pain.
I’m trying to aim for an even and level feeling and that feels impossible. However, impossible does not mean it’s not partial achievable. And something is better than nothing.
I’ve had my ultrasound on my abdomen and pelvis to get a referral to an Endocrinologist after my GP wanted some more information about my PCOS. And whilst that’s a back burner issue over the IBD, it does feel like it’s pushing closer and closer to the forefront.
I am actively looking forward to the start of December so I can count down to the end of 2018. I have some leaving coming up for Christmas and I am already pretty prepared for this. I just want to have enough energy and resources so I can work all the way until my leave. Fingers crossed.
So what else have I got planned?
- Try and go without a sick day in December! Tough but hopefully, doable.
- Decide on 2019 goals and plan for the first quarter: content, ambitions, goals and plans.
- Find peace with my mind – it makes the top three again this month!
- Commit to a MH plan of action.
- Appreciate one thing every day. EVERY SINGLE DAMN DAY.
- Keep up with the Instagram stories!
- Share more of my daily thoughts on Twitter.
Do you find goal setting useful? What do you want to achieve in December?