To new beginnings…

Tuesday 23rd August (cont’d) “I’ve got a space for you on the end of the emergency list today, could be this afternoon, probably this evening though.” Ward round this morning and surgeon is keen to remove my colon today. Despite being busy, he will stay and do my surgery when his list is complete. Turned out that meant waiting all…

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In for the long haul

Thursday, August 11th “I feel absolutely awful. If I’m honest, I’ve felt awful for weeks and I’m at the end of my tether. Please help me.” I was on the phone to my IBD nurse, begging for help. I’ve never begging for an admission but that is what came out of my mouth next; “I’d really like to be admitted.”…

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Sunday; the night before

Feeling nervous about tomorrow’s appointment at the surgical clinic. Want to have it all booked and sorted so I know what I’m working towards this Summer but really dreaded it finally being in black and white. *** I know this is the best option right now. In fact, it’s sort of my only option right now. I’ve failed everything else,…

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Moviprep – The Storm before the Scope

The fun of a scope is in the preparation. Said no one, ever. My scope is scheduled for a Tuesday morning (thank goodness for morning appointments!) but my preparation of my bowel starts the Saturday before; three days prior. On this day I start my low residue diet. Anyone with IBD will tell you they follow a low residue diet…

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Pulling myself apart

Slowly but surely I am getting there. It’s the eve of my scope prep starting and I am hungry. I keep thinking this is the last time I will do a colonoscopy because I might not have a colon in a couple months. And boy is that surreal. I keep pulling myself between feeling super-duper positive about things and how…

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GI Clinic – 23.02.16

Never did I think I would be without any real plan. Never did I see my job being taken away from me from taking “too many” sick days. So you can understand my frustration can’t you? *** So I went into this appointment with very mixed emotions. Needing answers to my questions. Wanting a plan to fixed in place following…

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Infliximab #6 and more…

Updates galore tonight – I’ve been extremely busy and to some extend, ignoring my problems a little. The build up to the latest Infliximab infusion was interesting; ten days before I started experiencing extreme fatigue in my leg and arm muscles. This would get a little worse each day, until four days before when I was unable to raise my…

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World IBD Day

As this ordinary Monday comes to a close to many, I sit here going into the final few GMT hours of World IBD 2014 with some unrest. Should I show them? No one has seen these before, I’ve not allowed myself to bear these photos to other humans, not even other IBDers.. what am I scared of? What am I…

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