Musing..

Is this too much to ask? Does anyone think this already? I want someone to look at me and think ‘Jeez, she’s been through fucking lots and she’s still standing upright and smiling. And she laughs about it too! How? She does all that whilst being in pain most days? She must be one heck of a strong lady. She is a great person to be around.” If this is true, speak up or forever hold your peace.

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Another One Bites the Dust..

There is something to be said about protecting yourself, most importantly, your heart. With or without my medical history, this would be true. Spying on me, check up on me when you’re away and a lack of trust and understanding has irrevocably changed the dynamic of this relationship from a good one to an unhealthy one. It had to end. In all honesty, I knew it couldn’t work long term. Too much was said too quickly and far too much time spend at opposite ends of the country. The things keeping us together really were just myths. So here I…

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Helllllo! 🙂 On this day of love – and not because its just today, but because I do – I am in love.. with myself. Finally, after a couple days of good news and continuing to be pain free, I am fab. Things might not always be perfect, or even great, but as long as I know I can get through them – and not just because i did before, but because I actually can – everything is okay. I might wish I wasn’t as tired as I am, or the fact that I’m chowing down on lots of food,…

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Vitals

Photos of myself can only say so much.. so this is me, explaining, well, myself. At the beginning of all this, I was just a slightly chubby girl, happy with work, family and friends. Everything was good until I got food poisoning from a dodgy meal out with a friend last August. Everything changed after that. If I really think about it; and now that I know more about Crohns, my symptoms were apparent months before. Mouth ulcers. Mild diarrhea. Abdominal cramps. Joint pain. But nothing conclusive, nor extreme enough to make seek medical attention. So when I presented with…

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Introduction

Crohn’s disease is an Inflammatory Bowel Disease (IBD) and can be confused with Colitis. In my large bowel, there are cysts of inflammation which cause my bowel lining to become irritated by certain foods. Because it has been untreated for the whole month I’ve been sick, my inflammation is very high. I take a number of drugs to help ‘put out the fire’. Steroids to remove the pain, Pentasa to keep the inflammation to a minimum and calcium tablets to help keep my bones strong (in reaction to the steroids I have to take). Each morning I take 40mg of…

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