Mental Health

All posts under the umbrella of mental health

** I wrote this post almost two weeks ago, but was in a desperately dark place. Posting it didn’t, at that time, seem appropriate** I find my self being very angry tonight. Why? Because my boyfriend gave blood at a donation drive. I sat there and watch that guy sit through donation for a very selfless reason: Me. I can’t give blood ever again. Despite the Crohn’s, my anemia prevents me from helping someone in need. I find that very frustrating. That I’ve gone from one of the people who had nothing wrong to a person who could very well…

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Did you know it’s the middle of July already? We are creeping closer to the Autumn – something which I love – and closer to my Crohniversary – something I’m equally looking forward to. But I am sat here, on a half week off, reminding myself that this time last year, things started to turn down into the worst period of my life: GUTS AND PAIN. I hardly ever use medication to control pain, I just sort of ride through it. Migraine, headache, gut ache, period pain; nothing. Maybe this is why I am catious person and have never broken…

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Caught in the middle

I sit here writing to you on this Sunday evening hoping to find some clarity in the days ahead. I’ve been pretty poor at writing my blog of late, it seems that things have been getting in the way – mostly boyfriend and work related ‘things’ – but I feel as if I don’t spent enough time getting through the real crux of my problems. The inevitable fall, or the path to my next admission. I am stuck these days waiting for something to happen. Most days, I feel none of the dread I once felt many months ago, when…

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My honesty will be the death of me. Or maybe it won’t. It is true for everyone – and even more poignant for people who suffer with a chronic, long term illness – that you need a strong support network around you. Know how you get into mine? You stick by me through the bad times. The good times, they come around again eventually, but the test of your character – and of mine, but that’s another story – is how you help me when I’m at my worst. What do you say, what do you do when I am…

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Counselling last week gave me alot to digest. It may have been the sunny weather or the time I’d been given off work, but I went into session in a very good mood. It showed. We spoke about acceptance. It’s become quite a theme or topic of conversation and my therapist always guides me back to it. I spoke of my freedom off work during the weekend and she asked me about when I started back at work, what it was like. It was a week after my final scan – the lovely MRI bowel scan – and my latest…

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